As of yesterday, I am officially twenty-two years old! I didn't think this day would ever come when I was a kid. It seemed so far away, and yet, here it is! Do I feel any different? No, but I do think it is a big stepping stone. Yes, at eighteen I could vote. Yes, at twenty-one I could drink. However, here at twenty-two, I kind of feel like my life is just beginning. I'm actually having big-girl interviews and seeing the future open up before my eyes! It's scary and exciting all at the same time! This is where trusting God becomes absolutely necessary since there are so many paths lying before my feet.
I have lived in California, lived in Georgia, traveled to several other states, worked in Jamaica and Japan. I have been on all sorts of awesome roller coasters, made friends internationally, and finished four years of college with certification in Early Childhood Education. I was diagnosed with clinical depression and gone through some tough times in my life. I have felt joy and hopelessness. Yet, here I am! One thing I am learning over and over again is that when life seems almost impossible to handle, I wasn't made for this world! Jesus gave His life for me so that I would not only live with Him forever, I get to experience Him here on Earth. Life indeed isn't easy, and it most certainly IS NOT to make yourself happy. I mean, what kind of existence is that? Your purpose is just to make yourself happy and possibly others happy? But heaven forbid, if that person hates you that you still love them! So you live and you die. No wonder people are so hopeless and tiring themselves out trying to find fulfillment in their lives! It's all about them. Even if they are happy (which many of them are), it doesn't solve the human nature problem. Until we live for someone greater than ourselves, the world will always have strife, wars, and issues.
On another note, have you ever tried a Krispy Kreme Cheeseburger? Most of you are probably going ewwwwwww.... But hear me out!!! I tried it tonight, and it was delicious! Not good for digestion (and I'm up really late thanks to all the mixtures of food I have eaten the past two days - including Chinese food), but it was almost worth it!
Minus the condiments, this is pretty much what I had. Really good! I love donuts and I love hamburgers! Perfect combination!
Also, someone asked me my age today, and this was the first time since I turned twenty-two! I had to think for a mili-second before I answered! I still am a little shocked... Believe it or not, I have had two teaching interviews this past week! I can't believe how time is flying! Please continue to pray for me as I seek to do the Lord's will and go where He directs me to go. :)
My clinical depression has been interesting the past few months. I am still learning how to differentiate between my "normal" feelings and my "depressed" feelings. Also it's hard knowing some days will be more difficult than others, and that the same thing won't always work. I think my medication is definitely helping though! I feel so much more hopeful about the future than I used to, and I've been truly enjoying and laughing at things I haven't in awhile! Praise God! I'm also feelings those opposite feelings more acutely, like anger and impatience, but I'd rather deal with that than no feelings at all! I feel like my passion for God is also coming back, and I rejoice in this fact! I have always tried to obey Him and serve Him, but it helps when the emotions follow!
JD keep on trekking in our relationship as well. :) God has been good to us as well as I have dealt with my depression and he's been continually growing in his faith! I'm so proud of him and how far he's come even in the last year I've known him! I'm so excited for his upcoming trip to China! I learned so much going internationally to Japan (which I still greatly miss btw), and I'm sure he'll make those same connections I did when he's over there. Please pray for him when it comes to safety and doing the work that needs to be done there. I wish I could go with him just so I could take care of those orphan babies! I have also heard where he's going (Inner Mongolia province) is absolutely gorgeous! Me is jelly!
Anyways, sorry for the random post! I hope you enjoyed my thoughts on being twenty-two!
Peace to you all,
Keri Lynn
P.S. A picture of me and my sweet Chinese friend Lidan exploring the Governor's Mansion in Downtown Milledgeville. (First time I've visited this place the four years I've been going to Georgia College... And it's literally right down the streets from the dorm! Sigh....)
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