Once again, I am amazed by God's grace and His faithfulness! Here I am at the end of my four years of college, classes done, final projects turned in, and Capstone completed.... Can this really be the end? My mind really can't even seem to grasp it, and yet it's true! My heart is full of thankfulness and joy for the relationships I've built and the things I have learned. It's been a tough year, but I've learned so much, and God has truly taught me to rely on His strength even when I couldn't see it.
Depression is hard. Plain and simple. It's a chemical imbalance you have no way of controlling even when you eat well, work out (with an awesome boyfriend), and stay fairly consistent with your quiet times. I've had some interesting conversations with people since I've discovered I have depression, and I've been learning not to fall into that pit of self-pity and despair. Amazingly, God has already been using my experience with depression in ways I would never have expected! And at this particular moment, my depression has fled, and I am just sitting here in awe of how God has continued to shield me and love me even when I couldn't feel it. I have also started an anti-depressant, and I think it is starting to work. I feel like I've had a lot more of an array of feelings, I've been sleeping better, and things haven't seemed as muddled as they have been in the past. It's still not easy, but when is life easy?
All I have left is Senior Showcase and graduation! Then I am officially a graduate! I'm thinking of putting together an album on Facebook of my past four years of college just to be a little nostalgic and reflect (because the education program here loves to reflect and reflect and reflect...) on what God has done these past four years. (Has it really been four years???)
I've been enjoying working with the Chinese students here in Milledgeville. Who would have thought since I've worked so much with the Japanese. It's quite ironic actually. I've enjoyed going with JD and talking with them. It amuses me somewhat since I wanted to be a missionary to China ever since I was like eight. Then I saw this heartbreaking picture on Facebook about abandoned Chinese babies and I just wanted to run over there and open an orphanage! God has a sense of humor... So I'm interested to see what will happen! JD is going to China this summer, so I'm excited to see what he'll say about it!
Anyways, sorry for this rather random post! I still can't believe I'm graduating! But here goes nothing!
Peace to all,
Keri Lynn
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